i've loved and lost LB...even without tellin him bout my feeling.... ARGH!!!!

on my way home frm werk juz now...i've planned wat i wanna tell him...i wanna CONFESSED!!! yes...me..confessin my luv to sumone...its sooo not me sia.... so i reach home switch on lappy n log on to msn....1st person dat i look for is LB... he's ONLINE!!! and wen i pm him and say hi...no rply.... :( saw his PM on msn, "Am i making such a big mistake that she had to leave me????"...suddenly tears flowing frm my eyes....my mind kip saying dat i'll lose him....am i losing him??? even b4 i told him bout my feelings??? haiz....

my tears juz wont stop flowing even wen im bloggin now...

y it's happening to me wen started to luv dat sumone, he will always be attracted to sumone else n im losing him or he doesnt even have feelings for me and only treat me as his rebound rship....wtf! i juz hate the feeling... i juz hate the feeling of fallin in luv n losing even b4 the ship start to sail....hate it!!!!!


for now...shld i continue to hope for LB or shld i giv up?