juz came back frm visiting kak lydia at her place @ bedok den went for supper with mummy, ayah n iwan.

otw to kak lydia's place...i text isham...kindda feel bad coz ignore him for last few wks....sory sham...im juz stress up with things at home and work....

i've been forcing maself to make my decision on who shld i juz stick to...aku taknak mengecikkn hati sesape....those dat currently close to me seems dunt care bout how i feel....only to bacin dat i manage to share things.... thnx bacin for being here for ur "sista"....hhahahaha....he called me sista coz im older den him by 2 yrs...siakkn si bacin nie...buat aku terasa tua!

now..im stressed up on how i shld i make my decision....aku tak smpi hati utk mengecewakan hati sesapa...ckup lah jika hanya aku yg terluka tapi bukan yg lain.....aku tak ingin mereka sakit hati dan jauh hati dgn ku.... aku mengerti bahwa ini semua salahku....salah sifat manjaku...kerna kemanjaan ku ini aku seperti menipu perasaan mereka....tapi itu bukan niatku....tidak pernah terlintas utk aku mempermainkan mereka semua.....

aku buntu harus berbuat apa....kusut fikiranku.....